I washome sick today and i had this dream where some i know died i didn't even like the dude and i was reading a newspapper article about it and it said his name was bird man which is a name from a book i just finished reading. Any ways i was laying on my couch im my dream and i kept on getting check for being heroic when i was the reason he was dead. Then i got up off the couch to go get something for somereason and my sister wa in the kitchen for some reason so i went back to lay on the couch and i hear cabinets banging and i think its my sister cuz i saw her earlier and i yell stop banging the cabinets then the dude comes out with a plate of food and sits down at the dinning room table and out of nowhere my friend appears and she's at the table eating too. so i get up and go over to the table and sit down next to them and i see them staring at me with these blank faces and i realize that both of the are dead and then i wake up.

i also had another strange dream where someone (i though it was my mom in my dream) walk walking toward me on the couch i was sleeping on and the stopped to where there feet was just out of view and all i could think about was waking up but i couldn't. now that i'm awake i think the person on my dream was death.

i don't know what they mean and the scare the crap out of me.

one night when i was laying on the floor with my 20 year old cousin like i do when we watch movies together and he stared rubbing my stumach then slowly when up and started touching my boobs. that the only time he acctually touch me but there have been several times since then i have cought him starting longinly at my boobs. but i dont what to do. i know most likely that if do do anything it will tear my family apart and he was one of the last male people in my family i acctually trusted and that just makes it worse.